As a dad, it is hard to watch your kids grow up. I am more then likely not the first person to tell you this as almost everyone said this to me at the time of K-Dub’s birth. It is however true. So true that sometimes you feel like if you blink your kid will be packing their bag and heading off to college. I am being way more dramatic then I need to be but you get the idea.
This week K-Dub is turned four. Wow, four years old. It wont be long before she starts Kindergarten. The other day I was making plans for her party which was Saturday and I could not help but get a little emotional. Its hard to keep it together when you know you are just another year closer to when your oldest leaves you.
I remember the day she was born. It was there day that changed my wife and I forever. Funny how you never knew some much love could exist until you have it bundled up in your arms.
I remember when she first started to walk. Now I can’t keep you from running around Target.
I remember the first time she got sick.
I remember the first time Paw Paw held her
I remember her making Christmas goodies with Maw Maw.
I even remember her first birthday party.
It is so hard to believe she is growing up. Now she loves to be a princess, likes to swing at the playground, get her nails done, wear jewelry and even help Daddy make dinner. She is so special to us and a delight to raise. Sometimes she makes things harder then they need to be. Dinner time is always a fight to get her to eat something other then Goldfish and a cereal bar. She freaks out if she gets the slightest drop of water on her sleeve and must change her shirt ASAP. She only can be a princess when she has a dress on and don’t call her one otherwise. She never wants to go to bed unless you tell her that there is a bath before hand.
Parenting is hard. It just is and no one is better at then others. People just do a better job of hiding it then others. Kids are tough and fearless which is scary. It is a never ending rid that goes way up and then comes crashing down the next turn. I love these moments even though they are hard and I feel like a failure as a dad, I still would not trade them for anything.
Watching K-Dub grow up has been a privilege. Yes that is the word I chose. I could easily have left at any time but I chose to stay and love this little girl. I love teaching her right from wrong, making snacks with her, taking her on special dates, fighting with her about proper shoes for school and punishing her for talking back to her mom. It is all in a days work.
Now she is growing up and one day will not me. Even after I spend three hours of my day off building her a Disney Princess Dollhouse.
Until then I will just continue to enjoy the ride.
The party was a blast. K-Dub had a lot of fun and the day was truly about her. Here are some pics from her party and when we gave her her present.